Tuesday, March 31, 2009

defying gravity

Today the new Keith Urban cd hits the stores!!!! Oh how I've waited for this day. But as unfair as life can be, with money going to lawyers and doctors, I have to wait until Friday in order to go buy it!

i'm not sure anymore

I'm having a day where everything makes me want to turn into a blubbering idiot.

I actually think I've reached my breaking point. They say God doesn't give us more than we can handle but what happens when we've handled all we can... then what??

I'm struggling with an overabundance of emotions..... guilt, resentment, happiness, anger, anticipation, disappointment, optimism, pessimism, affection, pride, relief, sadness... I could go on and on but you get the jist here.

I don't know if my physical self can handle my emotional self anymore.

I've prayed and prayed, for myself and for others. I've tried to tell myself tomorrow is a new day. Unfortunately for the last week, nothing has worked or I should say I FEEL as if nothing is working.

Today I cry at the drop of an eyelash... the mere thought of someone asking me a question... I should've stayed in bed.

Monday, March 30, 2009

i heart faces - pouting

This is my first week participating in I Heart Faces. This week's theme over at I HEART FACES is Pouting. While alot of this goes on in my home at several times throughout the day, I often do not have my camera ready when they do. So, here is the pic that I've come up with today:

Go on over here and see who else is pouting today!

20 Random Questions to offer a little insight

1. When you were a child, what did you want to be when you grew up?
The great thing about being a child is you can be anything you want!! I, however, wanted to be like Dolly Parton... boobs and all. I really thought I could sing country music. Even went so far as to ask my mom how to get big boobs like Dolly. Her response, "eat your corn." I ate corn, it didn't work!

2. What have you done in the past week to help someone else?
the same thing I've been doing since November 15th, taking care of her 3 kids!

3. Who is the best-dressed person you know?
My friend, Danielle, she wears really nice and cute outfits.

4. What is on your nightstand?
a clock, the phone, bottles of lotion, addison's hair bands, Some meds for Addison, Addison's hair brush, probably a bottle from last night... Do you see a theme here?

5. If you were a cat, what kind of a cat would you be?
I would probably say a siamese since they are moody and tempermental.

6. If you lived in a house surrounded by acres of trees, what particular type of tree would you want flourishing on your land?
Oak trees! I love them... they are big and they have the best branches to crawl up in and just hide out... we used to do it all the time when we were little living in Prairie Lea, TX.

7. What do you find to be very overrated?
Oh, lots of things.... at this point though, cell phones!

8. How many email addresses do you have?
four or five...

9. Have you ever felt replaced?
yes, on a daily basis

10. Would you rather watch football or baseball?
Baseball, I have three nephews and a son who are awesome at this game!

11. What is the wallpaper on your phone?
ummm, I don't own a cell phone... see question #7

12. Name a lyric from the song you're listening to.
here comes goodbye... here comes the last time... here comes the start of every sleepless night... the first of every tear i'm gonna cry.

13. Do you use a feed reader?

14. What chocolate do you always leave in the box?
anything with cherries in it... ewwww

15. What would you do if you found out your ex is engaged?
feel sorry for the poor girl who said yes or wonder if she was retarded...

16. Do words hurt you?
oh yea, sometimes a lot worse than physical pain.

17. Are you a talker or a listener?
I am a talker, and I think I talk too much.

18. Have you ever walked on the beach at night?
Yep, I love the beach... love it, love it, love it... can't wait to go this summer~~~

19. Who is your favorite professional athlete?
oh wow! not really into professional sports but I'm going to go with Peyton Manning since he's Blake's favorite right now.

20. Which TV show have you seen pretty much every episode of?
Beverly Hills 90210... I never missed an episode... Oh and more recently, Nip/Tuck!

Now it's your turn... let us in a little

Friday, March 27, 2009

still pray

See this precious little boy:

He is still not well and still needs our prayers. It only takes a second. Please pray and let God know that we are all here for this family. And go on over to his Momma's page for updates on his status.

We are praying for you Stellan!

a peek into my weekend....

Just in case you were all wondering what BIG plans I have for the weekend, wellll.... if things go accordingly I will look a bit like this:

This, by the way, is NOT my dog, just a dog enjoying life. Oh how I wish, it were that simple!!! But it's not, no one to feed me, let me out when I gotta pee, play ball with me, and rub my head til one leg starts kicking away... lol.. Instead it's off to work, cooking, cleaning, no sleep, getting up at night to warm bottles... etc.. etc.... But this weekend... NOPE... I'm resting!!!

Happy Birthday to my sister!!!

Today is my sister, Beverly's, birthday. She is in TX and we arent' able to spend the day together. I hope she knows how much I miss her and love her. Go on over to her blog and wish her a Happy Day!

Thursday, March 26, 2009

How I've spent my morning.

This is what I've been doing this morning. Be sure and turn up your volume so you can hear the song. I used to sing it to Blake and now sing it to Addy... well, we all three do and she just laughs... maybe because we sound horrible... but to her, she loves it!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

for my amusement

These are my two nephews and niece that live with me... and at that moment they were ACTUALLY being good... it's a rarity!

Random blahness

Yep, it's hump day and I'm still in a funk. Just blah!!! Nothing seems to excite me and I dang sure cant' get motivated. What I really want to do is just sit at my desk and cry!!!

So, in all my random thoughts today that I may post on later, here are some random pics!

This is Charlie... our dog who doesn't realize he is a dog. He will NOT eat dog food and instead beats the cats up and takes their food.... go figure. Notice how he is sticking his tongue out at me. Bad dog Charlie!!!

Here is Princess Lily. She has learned to tolerate Charlie and the rest of us. She likes Becca the most. She gets on my last nerve because she loves to sleep on the table. Although the other day I caught her on the kitchen counter. The sun was shining through the window that day and I guess at that height she didn't have to worry about Charlie waking her from her nap.

And this is cat #2... he has several names... Big Daddy, Conway, Damn Cat. He is our most loving pet by far. He loves to sleep in Addy's bouncy seat which causes me to break out the lint roller everytime we put him back outside. If we keep him in too long he forgets to use the litter box... ewww. He is giving Becca kisses in the pics!

Okay, going back to work now.... blah!

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

the whole scheme of things

Well, hot diggity dang, I made it through Monday!!! Yay for me.... not really a great accomplishment in the whole scheme of things. Just my opinion.

I forgot my glasses this morning and everything is a blur so pardon me if my spelling is not up to par. Thanks!

I hate writing a blog where all I'm doing is complaining but dang, I got some complaining to do and I am using this as a form of therapy.... soooooo....

Work has been crazy. I can't seem to get caught up. Maybe it's because I'm to busy reading and writing blogs.... nah, that can't be it. I think its contributed by the fact that everytime I start getting there, I have to take off for something that involves the other three children I have living with me. It's very irritating. I'm thankful that my company is understanding but still, when I'm missing a day or so a week it just doesn't look good in the whole scheme of things.

I'm in the process of training others to do my job so they can fill in as needed. And in this process I'm creating a training manual and I want it to be perfect so that if someone who has never done this before sits at my desk, they should have no problems creating the paperwork needed. I really don't want to fail at this.

Today I'm meeting my cousin, Vanessa, for lunch. I left my camera at her house Saturday when I attended her bridal shower. We have sat down and had a conversation in a while so it will be nice. It's sad that we don't live too far from one another yet never see each other on a regular basis.

Speaking of the shower, here a few pics that my aunt sent me because you know, I was forgetful and forgot my camera.

This is me and my Aunt Sandra... and Addy pigging out... lol

Addison and Sophie - who is my cousin, Tommy's, youngest daughter.

Isabell (Tommy's oldest) and Shannon (Tommy's wife) with me, Becca and Addison

It was good to see family the other day.

Got a call from the lawyer's office yesterday morning and the adoption papers have been filed at the courthouse. Now we are trying to schedule the counseling sessions and lawyer visit with the birth mother and that's not going so great. I can't get anyone to freakin' call me back!!!! UGH!!! Once that is done and we have home study and at least 45 days has passed then they can schedule the court date to make everything final. He said it should all be done and said within the next three months. That's good news!

On the other hand, my hubs is driving me completely insane!!! As well as my 16 year old who thinks she is grown!!! WTH???? She doesn't seem to care about her grades or anything else. She made co-captain of the varsity cheer squad for next year. I reminded her that without goood grades she wouldn't be cheering at squat! Then I got total attitude from her... why oh why??? She really isn't a bad kid, just has a bad attitude. I don't know what to do anymore as far as her grades are concerned. I'm exhausted.

Anyways, enough ranting and raving, I gotta get my behind back to work. Happy Tuesday to you all!

Monday, March 23, 2009

Not me Monday - it's a bad day

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

Oh boy, here we go again!!!

I did NOT work my butt off last week to get a few overtime hours on my check only to lose them when I had to take off Friday.

I did NOT puke in my mouth Thursday night when I walked into the kiddos bedroom only to find that Emily had puked and pooped all in her bed.

I was NOT thankful that her mattress is waterproof and puke proof and could be easily cleaned with Lysol.

I did NOT have to take Emily to the doctor on Friday morning because she had severe diarrhea and a fever of 103.

She did NOT proceed to poop all over me two times while we were at the doctor.

I do NOT have a week stomach and this did NOT bother me at all... hence the puke in the mouth.

I did NOT go Saturday to my cousin's bridal shower and have my first mimosa ever... okay, well maybe two mimosa's ever... lol

Vanessa did NOT look beautiful in her pink and black dress.

My visit was NOT cut short and I did NOT run off and forget my camera at her house.

This, of course, did NOT piss me off!!! I do NOT feel lost without my camera.

Addison was NOT oohhed and ahhed over at said shower!!! Why would anyone do that???

We did NOT grill steaks and sausage on Saturday evening because it was such a beautiful day!!!

I am NOT having feelings of guilt because I feel like my life has been put on hold while I raise another person's children. I do NOT at times resent that!

I did NOT get extremely aggravated with hubby and his snoring last night. And when I woke him he did NOT start complaining about how HE never gets any sleep.

He did NOT sleep on the couch and did NOT threaten that he was moving out today.

I did NOT tell him that I didn't care, that I was glad he was leaving. I am NOT tired of fighting with him all the dang time!!!

I am NOT having a bad day, I am NOT having a bad day, I am NOT having a bad day.

I am NOT thankful, however, that no other child has gotten sick with the virus so far!

Please Pray

Please pray for baby Stellan today. He is not doing well and needs our prayers. Thank you.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Fast and Furious

Okay, I admit it, I have a weakness for this. My reason:

Paul Walker... completely hot. Forget Vin Diesel (although he's nice looking). This blonde hair, blue eyed hunk takes the cake! I've seen every Fast and Furious movie since the first.. even though he was not in Tokyo Drift... still.

And he's in this movie, "Running Scared", and completely hot in it also... wait, I don't think I've seen a movie he's not hot in... lol

So, am I going to see Fast and Furious when it opens April 3rd... well, of course!!! But I will use Blake as my excuse for going..

Wordful Wednesday - Model in the making

*Wordful Wednesday is for those of us that like to showcase a photo(s) but that just can't seem keep our mouths shut about it(them). If you'd like to play along, post a photo on your blog, and let the words roll. Be sure you go see Angie over here and let her know you participated.

I know we've all done it before... went to take your baby's clothes off only to find that they look so stinkin' cute with them stuck on their heads. This was no exception with Addison the other night. Photos are courtesy of her big sister, Becca.

She let us play with her for a while like this and then she got aggravated. Probably because we kept taking pictures. She thinks she's a model in the making and is starting to get the diva attitude to go along with it!

Monday, March 16, 2009

These are my confessions....

I got tagged by KRISTEN over at Somethin' about nothin'....

1) What is your blogger name? LAURA

2) When is your birthday? JUNE 10

3) How long have you been blogging? SEPTEMBER 'O8

4) Who tagged you? KRISTEN

5) Tell me your 5 most favorite body parts?

6) What do you wish most for your birthday? TO BE ABLE TO GO TO TEXAS TO VISIT FAMILY

7) What color are your nails now? NATURAL, NO POLISH AT ALL

8) Any depressing thoughts lately? YES, QUITE A FEW ACTUALLY

9) What's your next 1 month's plan? HELL, JUST TO GET UP EVERY DAY

10) At what age did you have your 1st crush? I THINK FIRST GRADE, BOBBY DELEON

11) Did you attend any school reunion after you graduated till now? NO

12) Have you ever passed gas in public and pretended you didn't smell anything? NO, I JUST PRETENDED IT WASN'T ME

13) Are you a clean freak? NOT TOO BAD BUT I DO NOT LIKE CLUTTER

14) Which era do you wish you were born into? THE DISCO ERA... I LOVE DISCO MUSIC AND I WOULD HAVE SOOOOO BEEN A DISCO QUEEN

15) Are you a vegetarian? OH HECK NO, THERE IS NO WAY I COULD DO THAT.

16) How many pillows do you sleep with at night? TWO

17) Are you a light sleeper or an I-don't-care-if-there's-a-bomb-here sleeper? UNFORTUNATELY, I TEND TO BE A LIGHT SLEEPER BUT THERE HAVE BEEN NIGHTS WHEN I'VE BEEN THE OTHER

18) Do you secretly wear comfortable granny panties when your man is not around? NO

19) What is your ultimate dream job? BEING PAID TO LAY ON THE BEACH, DRINKING MIXED DRINKS

20) What is it your hubby does that annoys you the most? DOESN'T PICK UP AFTER HIMSELF

21) What is your dream car? CHERRY RED MERCEDES

22) Do you easily wake up in the morning? NO, I HATE THE MORNING...

23) Do you like hairy men? I WILL BE FRIENDS BUT NOT FOR DATING.


25) Which one would you prefer, 2 hour spa, 2 hours Thai Massage or 2 hour foot massage? 2 HOUR FOOT MASSAGE

26) Have you ever wished you had a different name other than your real name? YEP, I USED TO HATE MY NAME... I'VE GROWN TO LIKE IT THOUGH

27) What is the most extreme sport you have ever done? HA HA... ME, SPORTS??? PLEASE!


29) What is your favorite food? CHICKEN


Here are the rules: Copy and paste the whole questionnaire and replace my answers with yours. You have to create a link for the blogger who tagged you. Pass to 4 other bloggers. Remember to inform them by commenting on their recent post. Display the logo anywhere on your blog. Last, answer each question with the truth, and nothing but the TRUTH...this is a confession tag, you know.

The 4 people I am tagging are:

Not Me Monday!!! - monday again???

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

I did NOT wake up this morning and think, "Oh my, Monday again". Nope, wasn't me, because I just LOVE Mondays!

I did NOT spend all day Saturday at home cleaning only to realize last night, that you can't tell.

I was NOT secretely thrilled that my hubs had to work all weekend because that meant that I didn't have to deal with his complaining.

It did NOT rain for two days straight over the last week and it so did NOT drive me crazy.

I have NOT been having to go every evening and pick up two kids from day care, drop them off, switch vehicles, go feed six horses, go back home and get the other vehicle, then go pick up Ms. Addy. No, I would NOT do that becaue that is just way too stressful.

A bag of horse feed and a bale of hay are NOT heavy and I am super woman and it has NOT taken it's toll on my back!!!

I am NOT still trying to potty train Emily who does awesome at day care but wants to be a little butt when she gets home and will poop her pants. I do NOT just throw away the panties instead of washing them out because poop makes me gag.

With this said, Emily has NOT gotten into a biting stage and started biting her brothers like crazy. I have NOT dealt with this enough and just told them to start biting her back... I wouldn't do that, not the best advice.

I did NOT get to spend all day yesterday with my three "babies" and we did NOT just enjoy a day out.

I did NOT go pick up my glasses yesterday and that are not tremendously helping. I think I am in love!

And I am NOT closing this post with a few pics from our outing yesterday. Enjoy!